Being a risk-taker is not easy. Sometimes (like today) all you want to do is lay in bed. You get up at 7:15 and realize that the risks you’re pursing are completely, utterly, effing scary, and you crawl back into bed and sleep for another 3 hours. And even when you wake up, you just lay there for another 45 minutes before dragging your sorry self out of bed to do something productive. Like make coffee.
In those moments, the most important thing you can do is be honest. Be honest with yourself. Don’t deceive yourself by saying in your head, “well, yesterday was a long day. I had an emotionally-draining meeting that went until 10:30 p.m. and didn’t eat until after the meeting and then didn’t get to bed until 11:30, so I’m just tired.” There’s a difference between being motivated to get shit done in spite of exhaustion and being so overwhelmed by the daunting future you’ve set in motion that you don’t want to face the day. So just call it what it is.
After you are honest with yourself, be honest with those around you. Tell them how you feel and what you’re going through. It doesn’t do any good to treat the people who love you the most like crap when you’re in a pissy mood and they have no clue what the hell is wrong with you. And maybe you have no clue what the hell is wrong with you either. If that’s the case, say so. Own your confusion and depressive tendencies (as I affectionately call them), and call it what it is: some part of your subconscious self has convinced your conscious self that you can avoid everything by just staying in bed.